I am scared to apply for divorce

Dear sir/madume, We married on 2014 having 3 years baby boy..seriously i am frustrated from my life dat.i am in confusion.my husband s working in army we were together till last 4 months but now he posted in kargil.my issue s that from starting marriage only he man handling on me he used to drink lot..in pregnancy also..he man abused very badly went till police station there they have taken excuse latter and and forgive him.but he contnueing dat and and he used to chat with unknown girls in facebook and phone.and for our expenditure also i have to ask and i have to listen s bad words and after all he ll send money ...i am.leading life like single parent.and he s not giving money properly saying to earn .if ask for kid thats your headache..in all i saw valgur photo of his sister in his phone .aftr day i spoke with her and she said he only forcing me to send her won photo am.having call record also..he s full day drinker..he wont be on house if its one hour work he ill take 1day work.if